harboring feelings
harboring feelings for you isn't a jolly thing for me to go through every sophisticated days that passed. it does not nurture me wholly but debunks my mood every single time I spare a thought of you. harboring feelings for you is like drowning in an ocean substantially filled with catastrophic and subtle sentiment adoration for you. i feel like i can't escape a maze that was intentionally built in your confounding dark maghony brown eyes of yours. i feel that wherever i turn to, i'm obliviously trapped. my thoughts of you is like a unceasing thunderstorm, lightning and a heavy downpour to wreck my mood and mindset. but what was missing from this devastating occurence was the hurricane. what was missing was you. you were the hurricane. you came crashing into my lonesome world without knocking on my door, asking for permission to enter. yet i loathed you for your inconsiderate actions. you didn't even apologize for causing a swift massive destruction in my world. hopefully, one day i would pick up the courage and gaze at the stars with tears streaming on the left side of my scornful face and utter, "i shall now let you go". you have filled my days with contempt and now letting you go is the next step of shattering my pious pride, but i shall do whatever it takes to stop thinking of you whenever i am filled with satisfaction or melancholy. goodbye for now.